I have been back home for two weeks since my amazing freedom vacation. I highly recommend getting away from your day-to-day life and going to recharge your batteries. One of the best parts of getting away, which I did not plan for, was not being accessible to my old life. What I mean is not so much the people I care about but more getting the calls from people who want to be in the know and find out why I left. It was great to have a break. It let me start my manifesto and sort through my fears and emotions.

This was my third divorce party. A tradition I started when I went through my first divorce with the man I thought I would have a family with and spend the rest of my life with. We had 300+ people at our wedding so I decided that the break-up (after 10+ years) needed to be acknowledged with a vacation and it helped a lot. So this time, when I was divorcing my job, after a 12+ year relationship, I also wanted to make a clean break and get away to reflect.

Divorcing your job is not easy. Your brain and heart constantly have these disagreements about the decision your heart wants to make because it is passionate about living fully and the decision your head wants to make because it is going through all of the “what ifs.” Then, if you listen to all thew news about our economic meltdown, you may decide to follow your head.

In my situation, it was a compromise my head told me to make sure I take care of my ability to support my lifestyle and my heart told me that the company I fell in love with can no longer give me a full life. I got so much from the company over the past 12+ years but in the last few years it felt like it lost the plot. I felt like it was a huge vacuum cleaner sucking up my energy. I was not getting much in return apart from a pay check, which is important but not enough as it got me thinking about my poor health and stress.

The heart won out. It is more important for me to be around longer and live a meaningful life.